Last of the "Freedom"

Today is the last day of "freedom" before I go back to work tomorrow. The husband is very fond of running around the house all weekend in a sing-song voice telling me that..."You have to go back to work...You have to go back to work...No more sleeping for you...No more lazzzzzyneeessss...You actually have to work again". I want to slap him. I know he doesn't think I have been just playing and I know he knows this was serious surgery - the Dr said they "took a 12 lb alien out of my body" (her words) - I think he just has missed having me next door for the last month...lol. He loves to come next door to my room and "cause trouble" or ask how to make something technical work etc. It is nice to be missed. I got a lot of that on facebook too. When are you coming back....We miss you....Never knew how much you did until we had to pick up the things you didn't do. You know the typical things. Even have parents emailing asking when I will be back. I wish I would have been permitted back earlier but alas that was not to be.

So how do I feel now that my freedom is at an end? In one word....TIRED. I am tired of sitting at home. Tired of having nothing to do but read, watch TV/movies, and play on the computer. Tired of just going for a drive. Tired of not being able to do things that I should be able to do. Tired of being inactive. Tired of hearing "don't do that you will hurt yourself". Tired of wanting to do some things and not being able. Tired of not sleeping well. Tired of wondering what to do next....you get the idea. Heaven help me when I retire. Will have to find another job...but one that starts at about 11...I did like the sleeping until 10 or so every morning. The dogs liked having me home all day especially Harvey because he didn't have to spend the day in his kennel (he has a tendency to chew things he is not suppose to when he is home without supervision).

Now what do I predict for the future? One word....TIRED. I will be tired from being out of "shape" because I have done nothing for the past 7 weeks. I will be tired from school all day. Tired from after school until 5:10. Tired from coming home and cooking and cleaning (surgery is over the husband doesn't have to do anything anymore - not that he did it when I had the surgery). Tired from not sleeping well at night. Tired from getting up at 6:15 in the morning instead of 10. I guess my life will revolve around the word tired...not the word Freedom like I had hoped.

Freedom is still there though. I will have the freedom to go back to a job I enjoy. Freedom to ride the horses again. Freedom to move and be active again instead of sitting and laying down all the time. Freedom to play and walk with the dogs. Freedom to take a nap when I get tired. Freedom to just get back into the life I lead and enjoy without all the pain and problems that I had before the surgery. So it really isn't my last day of freedom ...just have to work on my stamina for the new freedoms I will get.